"Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other." Carl Jung

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Stress and Anxiety

trr_spring12_edwall_table1My first memories of severe anxiety and stress occurred during my second primary school. The incident is still clearly etched in my mind. The female teacher, a large lady with a vicious temper, was attempting to teach me knitting; I kept getting it wrong and mis-counting the stitches so she kept me in late at school after everyone else had gone home and I still got it wrong. The more she shouted at me and sent me back to do it again the more anxious and stressed I became until my hands were shaking, my stomach knotted and I was fighting back the tears. In the end she completely lost it with me and slapped me so hard that I flew over a table, unable to withstand the violence.

Due to my mother’s survival struggle as a divorcee following my father’s return from war suffering from PTSD, then known as shell shock, she sought work as a housekeeper to provide accommodation and food in our bellies. Unfortunately she formed an unhealthy relationship with her male employer, a landlord of a village pub. There were heavy drinking bouts and drunken brawls between them and one incident resulted in my mother being axed on the head and running around the house screaming “you’ve axed me, you’ve axed me!” I was in bed and heard all this and crept out onto the landing and listened, my stomach tightened as I prayed hard for it to stop. Eventually a policeman arrived and told me to go to bed saying ‘Everything is alright now.’ That was the beginning of a sense of powerlessness. That incident on top of violent treatment at school formed my early impression of authoritarian figures and their response to my extreme stress states.

I have learned since that severe childhood trauma can rip open the energy field that is designed to protect us. Children have a porous energy field until they form their own identity and healthy ego. These incidents combined to open me psychically hence I was privy to invisible worlds which others do not see, but may sense or feel around them. In old language spirits, the modern terminology being units of alienated consciousness.

We have gone from survival stress when our goals were to provide food and shelter as described in Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, downloadsee illustration, to an insanity of materialism and extreme spiritual deprivation. Our country is obsessed with GDP whilst Rome burns. We may wish to think that we are safe and protected from world events, but our psychic mind and emotions are not and unless we deal with our own stress issues and healing journeys we will be ill equipped to enter the turbulent future on the horizon. Superficial practices like Mindfulness and pseudo psychic healing methods are applying band aids when spiritual surgery may be required.

It was following achieving esteem needs of family, wealth and status during my second marriage, in the midst of extreme stress that forced me to “wake up” from the somnambulism material world I was dreaming through that caused a breakdown(read break through). I did not understand at the time that I was actually living a life of constant stress due to the high profile life I was leading, as I thought it “normal.”

This awakening process started with consciously leaving my body during resting on a sofa at a friend’s house. This first incident rapidly progressed to several Out of Body Experiences and other unworldly scenarios and perceptions of different time zones, including end of world vistas and many paranormal experiences. This drastic change of perspective was also accompanied by an extreme change in lifestyle where I went from living in a country mansion to temporarily living in a caravan while waiting for a council house, having left my husband. This resulted in my physical body drastically losing weight, my menstruation cycle ceased and a heightened sensitivity when I could not bear to be touched and my head felt like a gigantic mushroom and I was frequently receiving “downloads” of knowledge and information. Computer technology was an unknown in my world at that time. But I can now look back and describe it as my brain being a computer downloading information that came from goodness knows where.

All this demanded a search for explanations and eventually led to me forming a close friendship with Eckhart Tolle the now celebrated spiritual teacher and Author of The Power of Now and encountering David Icke author of Children of the Matrix and one time TV Sports presenter before his spiritual awakening and media assassination and UK’s mass ridicule for his wild conspiracy theories which time has proved some of them to be correct. He was seen at the time as a mad man with an over inflated Messiah Complex. These two figures combined to save me from the madhouse. Without their in-put and influence in my life I would have ended up sectioned, drugged and regarded as “mentally ill.”

We can either learn to swim throughout the turbulent times or drown in a fog of prescription treatments and drugs. I have now reconciled my experiences, faced some of my deepest fears and devoted my life to living purposefully and holistically to better face the times we are entering. Avril Meyler Author of “A New Human” and “A Multidimensional Paradigm”

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Schizophrenia and Mysticism

shamanic-view-mental-health_schizophrenia The recent celebrated Hay Festival has prompted this blog; having attended a total of 7 events all to a larger or lesser degree focusing on Mental Health Issues. For  a number of years, in fact since a catalytic period in my life from 1984 to 1993 I have been on a steep learning  curve. The start of which I began to doubt my own psyche and sanity in 1984 to understanding that a profound  change that had taken place within me during that 9 year period. Regular readers will have noted my “multidimensional awareness” with regards to perspectives on Mental Health, but what may be less known is the monumental struggle that followed the understanding of what had occurred.

In 1989 I had the unique experience of meeting and eventually living in the same house as the now famous and celebrated World Spiritual Guru Eckhart Tolle.   At the time of our meeting he was known only to a few spiritual seekers, and was in fact running A Course in Miracles and I was one of only 5 attendees.  His fortunes changed dramatically when we parted late 1993 and he became the celebrated author he is today and I began in earnest to develop multidimensional skills during which I underwent many powerful and sometimes traumatic experiences.   Now a Mental Health worker who had none or little understanding of “Spiritual Awakenings” “Dark Nights of The Soul” and Mystical Experiences” would readily have referred me for diagnosis and medication within the psychiatric model. In another reality I may have ended up medicated and labelled Schizophrenic

Fast forward to 2013 I became a member of our local MIND Mental Health Charity following an attempt to resolve an unresolveable family issue.  Far from benefiting from the counselling offered there I was stopped in my tracks by the systemic belief systems abounding in Mental Health Organisations where none or scant awareness is given to Psychic/Spiritual/Metaphysical perspectives, hence the medical/mental illness models prevail.  This was the beginning of another learning curve but one where I was in control on all levels as the preceding years had given me ample opportunity to practice the art of Self Will, when my being was being played around with by mischievous spiritual entities.  Or put it another way, parts of my psyche had split off and had become alienated from the wholeness of the ONE and therefore spent their dream time destructively creating and craving attention.  Only when I dedicated a period of two years self healing strategies by engaging these split off parts of me did I begin the journey through soul retrieval and eventually embraced, healed, accepted and owned those parts of myself, no longer seeing them as outer forces doing battle within me. Shamanism has much to teach our Mental Health teams.

I cannot stress enough the monumental amount of work this involved, and I was blessed to meet the occasional healer/shaman who far from considering my mental health as a problem, journeyed with me side by side and held out an invisible hand when I was forced to leap through the fires of hell to undertake this soul rescue.  It was a period not only filled with multidimensional parallel universe phenomena but also lucid clear dreaming that symbolically spoke to me far clearer than any well-trained counsellor.

Listening to the many lectures ranging from Ruby Wax on Mental Health and Mindfulness to a research group from Worcestor University on Bi-Polar I profoundly understand that we are largely still floundering around in the dark.  These issues cannot be adequately addressed without addressing the wholeness of what it is to be human leading to what it is to be a multidimensional spiritual conscious being experimenting within human development.  Whilst there are breakthroughs in Quantum Physics and on You Tube can be found a plethora of nuero scientific/brain/quantum resonances what is rarely heard is the real human story behind such abstract concepts. You Tube had not been created in 1984 (to my knowledge) and I believe my experiences somehow touched on and in these worlds without any understanding of the intelligence behind it.  For that I am deeply grateful to the Universal Guidance that I and others are receiving once they open their minds to embrace the unknown with trust in a Universal Intelligence some regard as GOD

Much of my “story” is related in A New Human  reviews can be found here.

 

 

Spiritual Healing Cannot Be Purchased

image for consumerism artilceI’ve recently been given a book by a friend to read called The Silence of the Heart by Paul Ferrini.  I’m about three quarters of the way through it and decided to “Google” him and located his website and once again I saw “Spiritual Healing for Sale” despite his wise and comforting “channelled” writings he is no different than the numerous other gurus/teachers who are cooly raking in millions of dollars selling their particular brand of spirituality.  Spiritual Retreats offering peace, tranquility and four or five star accommodation and the “presence” of the Master is the new cool thing to do or place to be.

I come from an old school of thought that “genuine spiritual teachings are free.”  I have been blessed/guided to those who would give freely of their time and energy teaching me what they knew from the relatively unknown to the now famous and celebrated Eckhart Tolle and David Icke. I took what felt right and left the rest and then added my own experiences to the pool of my knowledge. (more…)

How to Suppress Human Potential in 2 Easy Steps

I wrote an e-mail to a friend on the subject of mental health/illness

It's better to light one candle than curse the darkness

It’s better to light one candle than curse the darkness

and spiritual awakenings and I want to share part of that e-mail with you co-bloggers.

Anyway what I have been pondering on is the whole skewed issue on Mental Health/Illness. In short I believe that the societies we have and are continuing to create is driving people mad. Most of the “awakening encounters” I have come across is usually the result of extreme stress caused by a crisis arising in a materialistic society whereby the real sense and feeling of soulfulness is completely disregarded. For example when you visit or speak to an advisor of Centre Link is their approach to get you to fit in with their criteria for being a “productive money earning member of society” or is their approach holistic and they are mindful of your experience and want you to feel fulfilled in your chosen career/work?

Perhaps that is the whole purpose of being here so that we recognise and see through the inhumanness, soulless and insensitive materialistic society we are creating and so we awaken and think we can change it. But the sad reality is, I am reaching the conclusion we will never change it, because it is not meant to change. If the Divine Design is to teach us about Love/Divinity/God (in the non-religious non-dual sense including Buddhism) then how can we with soulful integrity “earn a living” in a sick society? (more…)

Building Bridges – Part Two

From The location of Avatar in China.

From The location of Avatar in China.

I referred yesterday or was it the day before, time is somewhat shape-shifting at present, to “awakened” –  I need to enlarge upon this lest I become the elitist i am concerned about!  “Awakened or awakening”  – see the way I am deliberately avoiding the word “spiritual?”  Bet you can guess why?  No, its not because I am in denial about my own spirituality or anyone else’s for that matter, its that during my travels through the multidimensional awakening process – yes I’m still coming to that, be patient; I encountered some suspect stuff, lots actually which is the subject of another article , so I began to discern that spiritual was not always the best word to use to describe an awakening; it can be divisive i.e. ‘you are spiritual I am not.’  or  ‘I’m awakened you are not.’

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E-Mail to a Friend

Enlightening Strike

Enlightening Strike

I know why I’ve been concerned and keen to get my book out and it’s the sadness that I have been with today that is informing me. Reading Paul’s book and seeing how his words, written differently and far more profound than anything that I could come up with yet it is reinforcing the same message and to use modern idiom;

We’re well and truly fucked!  Unless we Awaken!

He describes our world consciousness as being in the middle of a psychosis that can either cause a break down leading to an awakening or we get tipped over the edge.

He describes this that he “names” Wetiko (another name for evil but not as out there but in here inside us and only reflected outwards”). He e-mailed me having looked at my blog as I informed him I’d added a link to his site and he said he is in the middle of writing another book about his direct contact with “Wetiko” and how it talks about his personal encounters with evil, which actually helped him realize the dreamlike nature of reality; it triggered an eventual healing.

I picked up my own book again for about the hundredth time opened in anywhere and read simple clear language. Chapters on Guilt, Fear and Anger; all common themes running in most peoples lives or rather “running their lives” From Trust to Knowing; Heart and Rainbows; What’s not to understand about that?  There are thousands of people who have and are awakening to see the world we are creating as not being fit for Human habitation, yet they are not being heard, because most people do not have the capacity to “take any of it in” because they are spinning so fast around the wheel of survival or denial, maybe both, not knowing it’s all a dream; remaining asleep until they awaken and begin to question what they are doing and why. (more…)

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