Yesterday I had lunch with two friends the conversation came up about A New Human and the fact it was initially inspired by contact with David Icke the conspiracy researcher. One of the friends I was with mentioned the movie Thrive on You Tube and that I should watch it, which I duly did. Being an Aries I am impulsive and whilst I was already aware of the “Thrive” paradigm through my own research a number of years ago I still felt inspired and motivated enough to forward it on.
I live in a community that is about 30 years behind the rest of the world, yes its hard work sometimes, but we are where we are. Nevertheless I forwarded it on to my contacts, knowing that if one out of 58 takes the impetus and courage to watch this movie right through, reflect and consider their response then my time would not have been wasted.
There is much “denial and dismissal” about “conspiracy theories” but when you consider the number of people who have been hounded out of existence because they have invented ways of making free energy, which has happened many times through the course of the past 50 years, then you have to ask the question what forces are at work here?
Shortly after my own awakening I began to encounter “conspiracy” and it had such an impact on me that I became ill having denied such paradigms; until I became a “whistle blower” and experienced first hand intimidation to prevent me from speaking out and by doing so uncover and ultimately prevent both financial and emotional abuse of vulnerable patients.
So for quite some time after recovery I avoided institutions and organisations because most people working in these places have mortgages, family and children and a lifestyle to protect and therefore they depend heavily on their continuing “job security.” And if that “job security” requires them to compromise their integrity then they will not wish to make waves or moves that make that job security vulnerable. So I undertook a considerable amount of self funded voluntary work starting in 2005 and continuing into 2013 thinking
‘I cannot affect huge things like “Elite Global Agenda’s” but I can ‘make a difference’ as well as indulge my passion for travel through voluntary work.’ And this satisfied me and I thrived and survived.
But all things change. Following my last voluntary stint, see Mission Neha free download I rendered myself ill with bronchitis having worked in India’s Polluted Cities, lice infested having worked in slum and squalor and had cystitis having got run down, I returned from India broke and with a huge overdraft. I was no longer “thriving and surviving.”
It was time for a re-think. Circumstances for the following 12 months necessitated time energy and my resources being spent on home repairs and refurbishment. After that I flung myself wholeheartedly into completing A New Human that I started writing 16 years ago. There is a very good reason for the delay as you will discover should you read it.
So where am I now with thriving and surviving, which part of the pendulum am I swinging towards, thriving, or surviving?
Since I underwent my own spiritual awakening I have never had more than I needed at any given time. I manage my travel through living simply and frugally, I have no savings and balance precariously between credit and debit, just managing every month to pay off what I owe on my credit card knowing that that week i must economise on my basic food shopping. I own nothing, no car, no home and am retired on a basic state pension and live alone with no partner to provide for me financially, so life can be extremely challenging at times. I have attempted to live my life with integrity, helping where i am able with the resources I have and so I became deflated and bemused when I encounter the “prosperity consciousness” paradigm prevalent amongst many spiritual and consciousness raising groups and wonder ‘what am I doing wrong?’
It is then I remember all the times when life challenged me to the extreme and how much I learned and grew from it and how so many times the bad things that happened eventually had a good result. But I am still not living the life i want to live despite my encouragement for others here on my blog. True, its less full of angst and drama but still far from the dream i have of living a life of joyous fulfillment as part of a growing supportive community. I would like to meet those who are living the life of their dreams and learn from them. Are my dreams unrealistic?
I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand. Anon