"Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other." Carl Jung

Stress and Anxiety

trr_spring12_edwall_table1My first memories of severe anxiety and stress occurred during my second primary school. The incident is still clearly etched in my mind. The female teacher, a large lady with a vicious temper, was attempting to teach me knitting; I kept getting it wrong and mis-counting the stitches so she kept me in late at school after everyone else had gone home and I still got it wrong. The more she shouted at me and sent me back to do it again the more anxious and stressed I became until my hands were shaking, my stomach knotted and I was fighting back the tears. In the end she completely lost it with me and slapped me so hard that I flew over a table, unable to withstand the violence.

Due to my mother’s survival struggle as a divorcee following my father’s return from war suffering from PTSD, then known as shell shock, she sought work as a housekeeper to provide accommodation and food in our bellies. Unfortunately she formed an unhealthy relationship with her male employer, a landlord of a village pub. There were heavy drinking bouts and drunken brawls between them and one incident resulted in my mother being axed on the head and running around the house screaming “you’ve axed me, you’ve axed me!” I was in bed and heard all this and crept out onto the landing and listened, my stomach tightened as I prayed hard for it to stop. Eventually a policeman arrived and told me to go to bed saying ‘Everything is alright now.’ That was the beginning of a sense of powerlessness. That incident on top of violent treatment at school formed my early impression of authoritarian figures and their response to my extreme stress states.

I have learned since that severe childhood trauma can rip open the energy field that is designed to protect us. Children have a porous energy field until they form their own identity and healthy ego. These incidents combined to open me psychically hence I was privy to invisible worlds which others do not see, but may sense or feel around them. In old language spirits, the modern terminology being units of alienated consciousness.

We have gone from survival stress when our goals were to provide food and shelter as described in Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, downloadsee illustration, to an insanity of materialism and extreme spiritual deprivation. Our country is obsessed with GDP whilst Rome burns. We may wish to think that we are safe and protected from world events, but our psychic mind and emotions are not and unless we deal with our own stress issues and healing journeys we will be ill equipped to enter the turbulent future on the horizon. Superficial practices like Mindfulness and pseudo psychic healing methods are applying band aids when spiritual surgery may be required.

It was following achieving esteem needs of family, wealth and status during my second marriage, in the midst of extreme stress that forced me to “wake up” from the somnambulism material world I was dreaming through that caused a breakdown(read break through). I did not understand at the time that I was actually living a life of constant stress due to the high profile life I was leading, as I thought it “normal.”

This awakening process started with consciously leaving my body during resting on a sofa at a friend’s house. This first incident rapidly progressed to several Out of Body Experiences and other unworldly scenarios and perceptions of different time zones, including end of world vistas and many paranormal experiences. This drastic change of perspective was also accompanied by an extreme change in lifestyle where I went from living in a country mansion to temporarily living in a caravan while waiting for a council house, having left my husband. This resulted in my physical body drastically losing weight, my menstruation cycle ceased and a heightened sensitivity when I could not bear to be touched and my head felt like a gigantic mushroom and I was frequently receiving “downloads” of knowledge and information. Computer technology was an unknown in my world at that time. But I can now look back and describe it as my brain being a computer downloading information that came from goodness knows where.

All this demanded a search for explanations and eventually led to me forming a close friendship with Eckhart Tolle the now celebrated spiritual teacher and Author of The Power of Now and encountering David Icke author of Children of the Matrix and one time TV Sports presenter before his spiritual awakening and media assassination and UK’s mass ridicule for his wild conspiracy theories which time has proved some of them to be correct. He was seen at the time as a mad man with an over inflated Messiah Complex. These two figures combined to save me from the madhouse. Without their in-put and influence in my life I would have ended up sectioned, drugged and regarded as “mentally ill.”

We can either learn to swim throughout the turbulent times or drown in a fog of prescription treatments and drugs. I have now reconciled my experiences, faced some of my deepest fears and devoted my life to living purposefully and holistically to better face the times we are entering. Avril Meyler Author of “A New Human” and “A Multidimensional Paradigm”

shamanic-view-mental-health_schizophrenia The recent celebrated Hay Festival has prompted this blog; having attended a total of 7 events all to a larger or lesser degree focusing on Mental Health Issues. For  a number of years, in fact since a catalytic period in my life from 1984 to 1993 I have been on a steep learning  curve. The start of which I began to doubt my own psyche and sanity in 1984 to understanding that a profound  change that had taken place within me during that 9 year period. Regular readers will have noted my “multidimensional awareness” with regards to perspectives on Mental Health, but what may be less known is the monumental struggle that followed the understanding of what had occurred.

In 1989 I had the unique experience of meeting and eventually living in the same house as the now famous and celebrated World Spiritual Guru Eckhart Tolle.   At the time of our meeting he was known only to a few spiritual seekers, and was in fact running A Course in Miracles and I was one of only 5 attendees.  His fortunes changed dramatically when we parted late 1993 and he became the celebrated author he is today and I began in earnest to develop multidimensional skills during which I underwent many powerful and sometimes traumatic experiences.   Now a Mental Health worker who had none or little understanding of “Spiritual Awakenings” “Dark Nights of The Soul” and Mystical Experiences” would readily have referred me for diagnosis and medication within the psychiatric model. In another reality I may have ended up medicated and labelled Schizophrenic

Fast forward to 2013 I became a member of our local MIND Mental Health Charity following an attempt to resolve an unresolveable family issue.  Far from benefiting from the counselling offered there I was stopped in my tracks by the systemic belief systems abounding in Mental Health Organisations where none or scant awareness is given to Psychic/Spiritual/Metaphysical perspectives, hence the medical/mental illness models prevail.  This was the beginning of another learning curve but one where I was in control on all levels as the preceding years had given me ample opportunity to practice the art of Self Will, when my being was being played around with by mischievous spiritual entities.  Or put it another way, parts of my psyche had split off and had become alienated from the wholeness of the ONE and therefore spent their dream time destructively creating and craving attention.  Only when I dedicated a period of two years self healing strategies by engaging these split off parts of me did I begin the journey through soul retrieval and eventually embraced, healed, accepted and owned those parts of myself, no longer seeing them as outer forces doing battle within me. Shamanism has much to teach our Mental Health teams.

I cannot stress enough the monumental amount of work this involved, and I was blessed to meet the occasional healer/shaman who far from considering my mental health as a problem, journeyed with me side by side and held out an invisible hand when I was forced to leap through the fires of hell to undertake this soul rescue.  It was a period not only filled with multidimensional parallel universe phenomena but also lucid clear dreaming that symbolically spoke to me far clearer than any well-trained counsellor.

Listening to the many lectures ranging from Ruby Wax on Mental Health and Mindfulness to a research group from Worcestor University on Bi-Polar I profoundly understand that we are largely still floundering around in the dark.  These issues cannot be adequately addressed without addressing the wholeness of what it is to be human leading to what it is to be a multidimensional spiritual conscious being experimenting within human development.  Whilst there are breakthroughs in Quantum Physics and on You Tube can be found a plethora of nuero scientific/brain/quantum resonances what is rarely heard is the real human story behind such abstract concepts. You Tube had not been created in 1984 (to my knowledge) and I believe my experiences somehow touched on and in these worlds without any understanding of the intelligence behind it.  For that I am deeply grateful to the Universal Guidance that I and others are receiving once they open their minds to embrace the unknown with trust in a Universal Intelligence some regard as GOD

Much of my “story” is related in A New Human  reviews can be found here.



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This graphic image illustrates how in one generation we have swung from a World Wide focus on the starvation crisis in Ethiopia as demonstrated by Live Aid and Bob Geldolf’s demands to end poverty and death by starvation in 1985, to a World Wide focus on an obesity crisis. It is clear that comfortable living and improved lifestyle choices has not necessarily enhanced our understanding of ourselves, and it is this lack of self knowledge and holistic approach to our health and needs that has led to obesity; quote from WHO (World Health Organisation) Read the rest of this entry »

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1. Leave me Alone, I am Reaching My Goal.
2. Fuck You!
3. Namaste Bitches!
4. It’s Not Me, It’s You!
5. Keep Fucking and Rock The World!

Nothing subtle then?

This is just a small sample of the T-Shirt messages worn by people I encountered throughout my time in Mexico. They were worn by a combination of tourists from far and wide.

“You’re Stronger Than You Think and Braver Than You Feel.”

That’s the message card I carried around with me to give me encouragement.

There is no denying I am sad for humanity. Despite this I have encountered some kind and warm hearted people on my travels. Read the rest of this entry »

cigarette_smoke_embers_2398481990 was a pivotal year for me three years after my marriage collapsed my business began to falter. All my outer material structures were changing but the inner changes were taking longer. I was into my tenth attempt at giving up smoking. My previous attempts had been thwarted by the increased stress levels due to the above, or that was my convenient excuse; ‘the time is not right’ I murmured, as I guiltily lit my second cigarette of the day. I was a practicing Holistic Practitioner trying to be a good role model, yet I was powerless to beat my addictive nature and its craving. What I’d failed to admit for some considerable time was smoking was becoming an embarrassment, but not strong enough to combat the addiction. For two years I swung between the wavering ‘will’ of ‘i can do this; i must do this; i need to do this,’ to needing the smoke as well as a dependant relationship with a co-conspirator smoker. As social animals we gravitate towards those who share our addictions; likewise we can also gravitate towards those that encourage and support our healthy evolution. Read the rest of this entry »

Multidimensionalreality.wordpress.com for FacebookWhat is your Mission in Life?  Where the soul leads………..

Recent travel here in Mexico has brought me into contact with people who clearly are living their “Mission.” Living one’s mission is not something that is taught to us in school. We are taught the essentials to survive economically but rarely if ever is the soul or spirit included in any information we are given. I realised last evening that Mexico is my 32nd country I have travelled in during the past couple of decades. These decades have been my greatest education and taught me far more than any formal education I have received. The travel, together with my life experience has brought me to understand what my mission is here and how I conduct that mission.

It was the words from a massage therapist in Campeche following receiving the best massage I have ever received in my life that inspired this article. As I thanked her for the session I’d just had and expressed in Pigeon Spanish how it was the best massage I’d ever received she said

“It is my mission.” She also runs a vegetarian café and sells crystals. Through a translator I shared with her my experience of using Moldavite, a crystal that is said to contain unique properties and originates from another planetary system and a huge piece fell to earth many thousands of years ago. Whether this is true or not who can say? What I can share with you at the risk of digressing away from the subject of this article, is the experience I had the first time I used it. Read the rest of this entry »


Love of a Blind Girl

When you love, you always risk pain. The more deeply you love, the greater the risk you will be hurt. Yet to live your life without loving is not to have lived at all. As deeply as you open to life, so deeply will life open to you. So there is a lovely symmetry and proportion between grief and love. From Eternal Echoes by John O’Donahue.

Love, true love, has no barriers, cannot be defended against, does not attack, justify or judge. It is, whether we are present to its energy or not. Many think love is a feeling, whilst one can sense love’s energy it is beyond feeling. The essence of love is indescribable and the best we can do is say what it is not.

We arrive on this planet an open vessel ready to be filled and whilst we may have many tasks imprinted into our soul’s blue print the ultimate journey is the one back to love.

Sometimes that journey can take us through levels of pain that shatters the mind, traumatizes the emotional body and can even seem to destroy us spiritually. Maybe that is the depth we need to go before we become strong enough to sustain loves energy.

Love is the strongest and most profound energy that some call God and if we are full of personal ideas, expectations, pre-programmed conditions, and pre-conceived ideas of what love is, what room is there for the strongest energy in the Universe?

Perhaps it is this energy that through its healing pOwer causes our lower conditioned mind to shatter thus making way for Universal Compassion.

What we call Love at this time in our current evolution is a sad reflection of true love, often a compromise of wants needs and unrealistic expectations, that according to recent figures frequently ends in divorce or years of abject misery.

I thought I knew something about Love then I was presented with a “call” to act on my deepest of feelings of love even though it would render me penniless, take me away from a life of ease and eventually affect my health.  The full story of this event that changed the way I view love can be downloaded FREE here.

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